A calm commentary on ‘Fuck you Asshole(s)!!!! (part 2)’
Wednesday, August 30th, 2006Sometimes things in life are not so complicated but there are always morons who want to create complexities and make matters worse. And since they always do that, I am also one who is idiotic enough to be part of the mess.
Having sex with other people was my prerogative. But some dumbsass thought that he was in between this. Explained enough, said enough but his mind is too dumb to interpret things from my point of view. Another fellow was late for an outing and I advised him to be punctual next time. Then he got mad, accusing me of mocking him. That wasn’t even close to mocking. What is mocking is what I wrote in ‘Fuck you Asshole(s)!!!! (part 2)’. Another fucker in circles99 thought that I was against him when I just questioned everyone about their don’t-give-a-damn attitude. One guy did not look for me in a club because it was so crowded and ‘impossible’ to find me.
Tell you stupid asses. Nobody, I mean nobody, even myself, has the right to criticize other people’s behaviour. If you are on top of the world, rich and all, handsome and smart, styling and profiling, ‘maybe’ you have the ‘authority’ to despise and mock. My dad sometimes, I feel, has the authority to scold me for it is really my bad. But even the greatest man ever is not perfect and I can easily point out that person’s weaknesses and inadequacies and bitch about it. And who do you think you are, fuckers? You are God? You know what is right and wrong? If you are so right and powerful, how come you are still like that? You arrogant, washed up piece of crap! Stop picking fault in other people’s thoughts and speech, for yours is another sucker. I never change and I’d better change? I should change to suit your comfort zone? I should change so that you like me? I should walk how you want me to walk and talk how you want me to talk? Stop imposing what you think is right on me! Your way of doing and thinking sucks and it is uncool because you have been ‘interpellated’ by the society. If you can’t see that my heart is made of gold and you think that I ain’t a friend then fuck off! As I have always said, it will not be my loss. It doesn’t matter what you think and I do not have to put up an image and please your sorry ass. I am always Me, real and authentic and never, never have I intended offending anyone or turning my back on someone. I always cared and I still will, even towards those washed up pieces of crap!
I give the impression that I want to pick a fight? If I really want to fight you think you will survive? These are only verbal violence, in response to the insults and mockery that you started. If you think that you are so great, go on with your life! As if it is going to flourish! Maybe if you are on the edge of falling into an abyss of destruction, I will offer my hand. And that pretty much depends whether you want me to grab your hand.
In the end of the day, my vision and commitment dictate my life, that is, to have an intimate relationship with all my friends: Caring for them and living happily together towards eternity. If you can’t see that and are not down with me, take a hike. You can keep the fucking criticisms of yours. My love is to all. Take it or leave. You do not have to insult and question me. This is me and I know what I am doing.
I simply have too many happy stuff to deal with and I can totally choose to ignore you assclowns. I should even be selective of the people I hang out with because people like you only know how to suck out my energy. But I have always chosen to deal with the so called ‘problem’ and you say I am righteous and egomaniacal. If my ego is big, why would even fucking listen to you? If I am not a friend of yours, I would just say "shut up" and leave. If I am righteous, yes I am righteous, because trust me, my INTENTION of doing anything is always clear and it is absolutely not evil, however pissed you want to get and wicked you think I am. Stop criticizing because your life is not perfect either and I can mock your life like no tomorrow if I want to. ‘Fuck you asshole(s)!!!! (part 2)’ is a very good example and simply a response to your criticisms out of anger. And other fatherfuckers out there whom I know talk bad behind me, you think I do not know and have got nothing to say about you? You know who you are and watch your back. Yes it is you! Don’t think I am talking about somebody else! I have a hell lot to criticize about you if I want to. Don’t think that you are hypocritical and nice to other people then other people have nothing to say about you. Before you get prejudiced against me and look at me with your biased eyes, you should look at the mirror and dismember your hideous face. I will personally dig out your eyeballs and turn them around so that you can see your own face.
Don’t bring out the devil in me. You will suffer. As much as I choose to be an angel, you’d better not piss me off and make me curse and scorn you till my spells come into effect. Even an angel would snap!
But then again, why all the anger? Why even write this piece of crap? Waste of my time, my energy and it simply distracts me from bigger and more important things in life. There are happy things to cope with. There are challenges that ignite my passion. There are people who accept me for who I am and love me lots for who I am. They do not say: "There is something wrong with the way you speak" etc. Nor do they say: "It is over" just because of petty, minor and unnecessary disputes. Yes I am a caring, open and responsible man! I shall run towards my goals and desires. If these idiots can’t see that I care, other people will. I will always remember that in this world, I can’t get all people to support me. People will always object because maybe they are jealous, righteous or skeptical. Like what The Rock always says: "It doesn’t matter what you think" and continues winning the WWF title even when fans favour maybe say, Stone Cold Steve Austin. What is most important is he gets what he wants in his life, tasting victory and pride, regardless of boos and the boisterous voices of opposition. And true enough, not everyone likes The Rock or a better example would be Triple H. But so what? I like Triple H! And Triple H has got a lot of fans too! Other people just do not know how to appreciate Triple H as a talented and shrewd man! My life is the same! Some people will not like my guts and so be it. People who do not like me I do not have to intentionally kiss their asses. I will just focus on my ‘fans’ and be who I am with them- simply passionate, caring, humorous, naughty and electrifying! I do not have to resist or fight those people who dislike or mock me. I will just plunge into the embrace of people who love me, feeling the bliss, blithe and warmth. For a heart of gold is strong and will not be broken by nincompoops. It will remain strong because I choose to and because these people raise me up so I can stand on mountains and walk on stormy seas…
But maybe I should learn to keep my composure the next time I get insulted. No more being impulsive and temperamental. I will be calm as sea as they throw tiny stones into me, having no effect at all. Then I will wipe them out like a Tsunami if I have to. I choose to control my emotions. Fighting back is an effortless move, a wasted move that creates no desirable result. Be water…Be calm…Misunderstandings do happen anyway…Some people are like that anyway…Be cool about life…Live life to the fullest…Go the distance man! You are the ’source of life’. Don’t let your heat fry them up. Use your heat to warm their hearts. Use your beam to show them the right path. The moon can’t eclipse you forever. The night will not be long. A new day comes, a new beginning. Each day I am stronger and a better man…And it doesn’t matter if they do not know…All it matters is you know it and I know it.
